She spiraled into a terrifying abyss of mental illness at age 13, and now in her thirties, Bethany Boik offers a disturbing and uplifting peek into the personal hell she has suffered and survived.

In Diary of a Schizophrenic, Bethany's poetry, journal entries and letters offer graphic details and insights into the mind, body and life of a teenager and young woman who loses control of herself, causing chaos in her schoolwork, friendships and family relationships.

Told through the lens of a woman stalked by suicidal urges, but determined to defeat her demons, this gripping memoir aims to educate people about schizoaffective disorder, while providing hope to those diagnosed with it, that they, too, can find peace and live a fulfilling life.

Bethany describes psychotic episodes that landed her in clinics and hospitals; the stays were difficult but they helped her get the treatment she needed to stabilize her mental health.

Describes the long list of pharmaceutical drugs she has taken for schizoaffective disorder, PTSD, ADHD, and other ailments.

Bethany also shares the beautiful blessings of friends, teachers, clinicians, her "found family" and her grandmother who provided the support she needed-emotionally, financially, medically and academically.

Bethany Boik is a powerful testament to the power of a strong will to survive despite horrific voices and visions in her mind telling her to end her life.

This book will open your mind and heart to the struggles and the successes of this courageous young woman who's on a mission to help destigmatize mental illness and inspire those who suffer with it to live their best lives.